i ain't never scared

I'm afraid of being overbearing

of people disliking me and laughing behind my back

I'm afraid of people in general.

I'm afraid of failing my math test next period

and afraid of failing a drug test 

and afraid of failing my parents

I'm afraid of falling for someone again

of being used again.. 

I fear life more than I fear death

and that scares me a little bit

I'm afraid of you

and of blowing my nose in public.

I'm afraid of gaining weight

and God, I am so afraid of heights.

Speaking of god,

I'm afraid of the 50 year old women dressed like teenagers that try to get me to go to church every Sunday.

I'm afraid of raising my hand in class

I fear others judgement

I'm afraid to talk to the cute guy at work.

I'm afraid I might not be there to help you this time around.

I fear saying goodbye

not being good enough

not being remembered.

I'm afraid of people reading all of my thoughts on a blog

and I'm afraid of not knowing how to end a blog post

so this will have to do