You looked kinda like sunshine does in the winter
After seeing nothing through the dark clouds for weeks,
Theres that moment when the light peeks though and reflects on the snow
Yeah maybe it's still cold outside but god at least theres hope to give you something to hold out for.
And that was you,
You know?
You were those little yellow flowers I saw growing through the cracks on the sidewalk on my way home from school the day that I failed my math test
You were the good parking lot on a way too crowded street
You were the green lights and the glory days and that one night I got all my homework done in one hour instead of four.
You were everything that made it all seem alright
But I think I was wrong to think so much of you.
Often times people are not really how you picture them
And maybe I didn't look at you hard enough to see past those rose colored hues falling around you
And somehow, you are nothing that I thought you were and everything I knew you'd be
Because you're not here anymore for reasons understandable to everyone else but still unfathomable to me.
I just don't know whats worse,
That you want to stay, but don't feel like you should- or maybe that you really just want to leave, but you aren't sure that you could.
I guess it's all just sad
It's sad because you were the sunshine in the rain,
and you don't even want me enough to fight to stay.
What I don't understand is why I can never be something that is good enough for you.
Or anyone else for that matter.
I used to think you were like Spring, and that with you it could only get better.
But then I cried when you said goodbye
And I realized that you were still a part of Winter
